My brain is literally filled to capacity with anatomy and government and english...

It honestly feels like I have an obnoxiously amount of information pounded in there...I have this absurd idea that if I shake my head, I'll feel all of it slosh around.

And for some reason I have a physical need to bang my head against a wall... >.o

And THEN I have this idea that if I do so, instead of blood, anatomy facts will come spilling out.

Ever felt like that?

Anyways...

I'll stay away from walls and instead crawl into my bed and snuggle into my pillows...

Boring And Random

DISTRAUGHT NEWS!!
I am...becoming...a day child...

Isn't that horrific?! The sun that I used to be terrified of is...now my friend.

Maybe I'm sick? The flu? But a backwards flu that leads me out of the dark corners of my room and into my sunlit dining room. Crazy, huh? I realized this when my dad came home to find me hunkered down at the dining table with college books opened all around me and staring studiously at the algebra paper before me... He asked why I wasn't in my room (am I confined there now?) and I told him that I liked it out in the open...I can't believe I even said that! But...I'm happy. I need to start spending more time out in the open. In the world that's full of chaos and love...yeah.

Anyways, I'm pretty much a day child now. My night life is almost dead. I used to be a nightowl (like every other teen), and then college happened. Scheduling happened. Homework happened. To put it more simply: LIFE happened.

I honestly thought this post was going to be more interesting...but I just don't have it in me tonight. I have a craving for sweets....BRING ON THE CHOCOLATE!

"There are nights when the wolves are silent and only the moon howls." - George Carlin

Cakes These Days...Too Bad It's Hard For A Lot Of Us To Enjoy Them

Everyone likes showers, right? Parties, gifts, cake, actual human contact; you know, the whole shindig. Well...I'm not too much of a fan, sadly. I'm not a party person unless it's just the family meeting up at my grandmother's for something. Besides that, I'd rather take a rain check but I don't because of the fear of meeting haughty and irritated eyes of those who I disappointed.

Showers are especially hard to avoid when they are being hosted at your house. Oh, the joys of having a new remodeled home with a backyard that is ever changing and ever beautiful. I'm not bragging... Seriously.

I was non-responsive with the shower in the beginning. I helped my mother and tried to arrange things, etc., but my real interest finally spiked when the cake arrived...

You know those cake shows that people either watch out of boredom or when they find the channel by accident and still stick to it like sweaty fondant? It's it amazing (and rarely horrific) the kind of cakes they mold and make from scratch?! It's so amazing! And the cake that was at the bridal shower today looked like one off one of those TV shows...




Yes! Look at that beauty!! The inside was three layers of strawberry cake with cheesecake icing filling! I heard it was marvelous, but I was not able to try it myself.

I'll explain that next time...

But the shower was good. I'm just ready for a relaxing night of...nothing. I tried relaxing with anatomy notes, but that just wasn't cutting it.

"Cake: made of sugar, spice, and everything nice! All it's missing is Chemical X..."

The Actions In The World Are Just One Huge Cluster

You know those days that are just weird and hectic? I definitely had one of those that started last night and finally ended today...I hope. I've still got a few hours to stay cautious, I guess. Don't want to kill a moth (my equivalent to a night version of a butterfly...but much more creepy) cause it might have the same effect of having the world crash into chaos.

After having a wonderful dinner that my mother prepared (taco salad), we started to clean up the kitchen when our bellies were full and our minds were still going over the events that happened in I Love You, Man. This is the beginning of chaos that happened in simpler terms:
Poured rice down the drain.
Rice expanded in the drain.
Drain is then clogged and taken apart...carefully.
Pipe breaks loose to unleash tepid, gray water and rice all over the inside of the cabinet and floor.
It looked (and smelled) like a vomit parade.

After vain attempts to try and fix this problem, it is finally realized that an important piece is broken...and must wait until the next day to be fixed. I was happy to wake up this morning and find that it was as dandy as it had been before it was poisoned with rice. I think my family and I learned a valuable lesson last night...

Today was crazy as well. A surprise birthday party was planned for my grandmother who will be turning 81 next month, and everything went awry. My aunt had just picked up the cake from an Albertson's and was taking a left as the green arrow on the light was telling her to do, when a large pickup ignored his red light, sped up trying to beat her, and ended up t-boning her. When the damage was done, my aunt promptly got out of the car and shouted, "YOU JUST RAN THAT RED LIGHT!" And the man replied: "I know, I know. Please stop yelling and calm down."

The first thing she did was call my mother in hopes of getting a hold of my father (the owner of a body shop) so we could come pick her up and help her with the situation. Don't you love it when men go missing at the most inappropriate times? My mother was flying through the house like a banshee, yelling his name (btw, my aunt was perfectly fine, just angry) and then zeroed in on me. Fight or Flight kicked in (really Fight no longer exists; I think I was made without that particular button) and I fled to the backyard where I knew I would find him. And lo and behold, there he was.

We found my aunt, stayed with her for about an hour and took her to get a rental. I rode with her, not wanting her to be nervous on the road alone.

MEANWHILE BACK AT MY GRANDMOTHER'S HOUSE:
The time set to meet was at 3:45. Everyone showed up except my family, my aunt, and myself since we were dealing with all the car crap. My grandmother was very confused. The entire family at her house for what they claimed was "just a visit"? Impossible! She was getting suspicious and worried, wondering "why all these people were at the house and not leaving", quoting from her (I swear she loves us!).

Finally, my aunt called her, gave the surprise away, assured her that she was fine, and begged them to eat the cake that my cousin took from the wrecked car and over to grandma's house.

In the end, we made it to the party. Had a good time for at least thirty minutes, then had to leave because my parents had a class reunion to attend.

So, today was weird (which I found out this past week was spelled 'wyrd' in the old english times and it meant 'fate'). But I'm glad I got to see the family.

“It turns out that an eerie type of chaos can lurk just behind a facade of order - and yet, deep inside the chaos lurks an even eerier type of order.”
--Douglas Hostadter

Just Now Realizing

It sucks when family members of the same family just aren't there for each other.

Everyone has seen those family films where the family is just so together and there for each and every member. So compassionate and willing and loving. Sure, in most of these films a problem will arise but it is almost always fixed in the end. It's situations like those that I wish how all families could be.

I'm not saying that I have an AWFUL family or anything. Really, quite the opposite. I've been blessed with a great family, but I am now realizing (for the first time) that there is so much unnecessary hostility from certain people. Hostility of such a degree that I have no idea where it even originated from or why. There is no reason for it. These people have done nothing to them except grow up beside them when they were in the states, shown up for every party, attended family activities and so on and so forth. When I look back, I see that the hostility has been there for quite a while.

One person in particular holds a grudge and it breaks my heart. I hear a lot of our family talking about one another and I just want to yell at them and tell them to stop because it is not their place. We should not be this way. We should be united as one as a family should be.

And then I heard another talk about one of our cousins in such a harsh, uncaring manner. I was shocked to hear her. She puts on some pretty good masks apparently. I think she could sense how uncomfortable I was because she looked at me, laughed and said "Really, it's funny." I wanted to tell her, "No, really it's not." But held my tongue. I would have been attacked by two vessels and what good would that do? It'd get me nowhere except further away from them.

I love each and every one of my family members so much. None less, none more. They all hold a special place in my heart. Maybe one day this can be fixed. Maybe not. Time will tell. And till then...I'll just pray about it.

*~[Endlessly]~*

Decisions, Decisions...

I remember in my last English class, we studied plot. Plot and characters. It interested me a lot. And today, I'm reminded about 'dilemmas'. Here's a rough definition that my professor gave us for that word (the parts that I can remember): The protagonist is forced to make a decision between two choices, neither of them desirable. Yeah...I'm in a dilemma.

Two choices lie before me. Both of them, if I could do each, would make me happy. But life is hardly that simple. I have to choose one thing to do. And in return, I'll feel guilty about the other choice.

You see, I made plans. Plans that are at least a month old. But a train derailed (figuratively speaking) and now I'm in a mess. It couldn't be helped though, nothing could have stopped this from happening.

But...I have two great friends who in end helped my decision. One of them had me think of each thing and I actually cried over one. He told me, quite plainly, "I think you've already made your decision." And my other friend, God bless her, told me that everyone would understand and that it was fine; I just needed to make the decision for myself. Better said than done, my dear.

But I did it. Made my decision. I feel bad, but it also feels like a weight has been lifted...kind of.

I just might cry over not being able to see my friends. But really, it's for a different reason than that. I don't want her to be mad or frustrated at me. When will this fear go away...?

*~[Endlessly]~*

Universe Jump

First thing is first! I wrote four reviews in my tumblr blog and if you'd like to check them out, feel free to do so! They are books reviews over, The Short Second Life Of Bree Tanner, wtf, The Time Machine, and The Invisible Man. Click on the link below:
BOOK REVIEWS

And now back to what this post is dedicated to...

For me, when it comes to reading and assigning roles to characters...my Character Bin is pretty limited. You see, after I started watching anime, I began to see them much more clearly in my imaginations eye than just...making up real life characters myself. I take character's from animes and place them into books now; making them character books. It's the only way that I read now and believe me when I say it can get a little messy. There are a good five or seven characters that I use over and over again...and for the most, it's alright. I usually try to switch around the main characters to be different anime characters.

Let me try to explain. If anyone has ever watched FullMetal Alchemist, then they know who Edward Elric is. Edward Elric is a character who is often the male protagonist of many books that I read. But it's difficult to keep picturing him, and only him, as the only protagonist of each and every different story. Anyone know of Fruits Basket or Spiral? Kyo Sohma or Ayumu Narumi? They are my other males that I use often if I feel like Edward has been used too much (confusing, I know x.x).

But it's just how I read. I can no longer picture real, living people. I don't know exactly when this began...but I do know that when it did, my interest in reading skyrocketed. So...it can't be a bad thing all in all. And I figured out recently that I am NOT the only person who does it.

I'm always careful when I read books, though. And usually, when I finish one, I don't start another till the next day. I always give myself time to think about what I've just read. Ponder over it. Cry over it. Or laugh over it. It's just another thing that I've always done. If I try starting a book that same day, I always feel like I'm cheating the previous novel of it's magnificence. I feel like I'm already gutting it out of my system, smoothing over the soil, and planting something new before giving the previous seeds any time to blossom. It's sort of a rule of mine to give myself the rest of the day to just not read. And even if I finish the book late at night, the whole next day I won't read anything new either. It makes my life a little simpler. And more thoughtful, it seems.

After reading H. G. Wells books and diving headlong into a modern book, it's rather hard to grasp the cultural change. I go from the 1800s in England to the new millennium of New York (I think), and it's quite different. I still love the book that I'm reading now, but you know.

Reading is sort of my life these days. Nothing wrong with that. Nothing that I can see at least. I don't let them affect me in the long run unless it's a good affect. Like listening more intently or loving everyone you meet...I'll pay attention to those things but not the destructive characteristics. Instead of embracing those, I ponder them. Break them down and try to understand them. I'll tell you, the only reason I ever read Stephen King's The Shining was because I wanted to see how the dad went crazy. I wanted to understand his insanity. And at the end of that novel, I did. I understood it all. I can't say that I blame him, either. But I do think he had more power within him to stop. But a character already proclaimed in text and print can hardly change once the end has been met. There is only acceptance.

I sometimes fear creating my own book. My characters come alive often and I always have to wonder what they plan. I put my trust in them though. And if they cease to exist at a certain page...I guess I won't be able to change that, will I? I'll let them do as they please (for the most part), and interject when it feels necessary.

I feel like I've typed enough for today.

*~[Endlessly]~*

Character...

I think a lot of writers have this problem (at least I hope...I don't want to be the crazy one right now): their characters start talking to them and telling them their story. It's like the writer isn't the one creating it, but the character is. The character just goes on and on about what's happened, what's happening, how things have or will turn out, etc.

I love it when my character does that, honestly. He certainly has a lot of interesting things to say and I'm all ears to listen. I even get to write some of it down. But...this is another problem that I have. When I get to a certain point...he just stops. He doesn't say anymore and he makes known the intention that he won't say more for a while.

Before (this sounds crazy) he was begging me to write his story and I complied very graciously...and now he won't even tell me what the hell is going on >D It's irritating! I want to write more of his stuff because it's so interesting!

I know he'll start talking soon, though. I guess if I take a better look at who he is, then it makes sense. He's an open book to few and he needs to collect himself often to get the words right. You should see him when he tries to tell his twin that he loves him...it's rather cute x3 He can't quite get the words out and he gets angry at himself AND his twin and he says "I love you" in anger and usu sally adds an awful nickname for his brother at the end of it xD Then he's all flushed and embarrassed and tries to make a quick escape...

I love him =D all of them actually. All of the characters. A few speak louder than others of course but I'm perfectly fine with that. They all find their voice at some point and I always learn so much from them when they do. It's fascinating and lovely.

I just hope I can prod THIS character into talking again...he can't leave everything the way they are. That's too cruel.

*~[Endlessly]~*

They Live

I put up a review for John Carepenter's They Live

Check it out =)
Movie Review!

Recollection

After a slight sad day, a smooth plane ride home, an amazing e-mail, seeing my father and animals after four days, I sit here with my laptop and a burning back and a calmer mind than before.

I've been in Chicago since Thursday and just got home today...and I'm actually glad to be home. Home is amazing. A sanctuary. A..."safe haven" if I dare to say the words Gard thought in his last moments.

Anyways, I had an amazing time while there. And the whole reason why we were there was for my cousin's graduation =) I am sooo proud of her! I practically grew up with her and as I watched all of the seniors step out onto the football field...I got all teary-eyed!

Let's take a step back.

We were worried from the moment me and my mother arrived in Chicago if we were even going to be able to attend the graduation. The graduation was supposed to be held outside, but there were clouds in the forecast, along with rain. If it was to rain, the graduation was to be held inside and only five guests per graduate were allowed to attend. I think I would have been invited to be one of those five...but who knows. We struggled with that and prayed for clear skies.

About the second day I was there, my cousin Salina took my graduate cousin to the DMV to get her license!!! Poor thing was so scared! But guess what? She did WONDERFUL! She has her license now and she can drive around legally! She's so excited! And she even told me, "Every time you come and visit, good things happen! You're good luck!" That made me feel special ^.^

The day before the graduation my cousin (let's call her by her real name, Nikki) had her graduation party. She invited about eleven of her friends and the rest of the people were family. Well...if my memory serves me right, only four of her friends showed up. I talked to her about that a little later and she said that it hurt her a lot that most of them didn't go. I can certainly tell she's growing up cause she said "I guess that shows who my true friends are..." The pain in her expression was very real...and I found myself wanting to kick her friend's asses! But...she's very right. I told her that when all that high school business is over with, only your real friends are going to stay close when everything is over with.

Besides the lack of friends, the party was amazing! There was so much family and I was able to meet and greet with a lot of them =D The food looked good...all of that pizza, pasta, and bread sticks...but I couldn't eat any. Not with my Celiac Disease. Instead, I was stuck with salad and their weird dressing xD At least I got to eat!

We went home after the party and Nikki wanted me to join her as she opened up all of her cards and gifts. Wow...this girl got so much money, it is ridiculous! But I am so proud of her! She deserves every bit of it!

The next day was graduation day and we saw a whole lot of sun! We all dressed quickly and headed out early so we could get Nikki there on time and so we could get great seats...and great seats we got!

The sun was hot at our backs, but there was plenty of cloud cover and wind. When it got time to give out diplomas, we couldn't find Nikki until she got in line. And when they said her name...we all screamed our loudest! I even clapped...and when we finished screaming for her, I found I was alone in my clapping XD Well...that was the shortest graduation I have ever been to! The speeches were super short and they were quick to call out the names. When it was all done, I was amazed and so excited for Nikki! But man..God sure was with us that day. The cloud cover had started to get worse during the graduation and we could see rain far off. And no kidding, ten minutes after the ceremony was over, it started raining!!! I've never seen so many people run for their cars! It was rather hilarious but I was running too so I could keep up with my mom x3 In the end, it was great! And I have a severe sunburn on my back from that day! It hurts real bad, but Miss Aloe Vera can take care of that ;D

On this trip, I feel like I've definitely gotten closer to Nikki. Not only to Nikki, but to everyone else. Rob actually held good conversations with me o.o and he taught me how to shoot some basketballs! It worked for a while...but not so much XD I had a little convo with Jordan. He is SUCH a sweet boy! So sweet and polite. He has a wonderful, kind heart and I enjoy his company very much. I got to talk to Michael and discuss some important topics. I liked that. He's a really sweet guy too and I hope he gets to come down here for the summer next month. And D'Angelo will always be the cutest little boy in the world!

When we left Nikki's house yesterday, I almost cried in the car. I hate leaving...so much. I love everyone there so much! I wish I could see them all more... But hey, as a little surprise, Nikki and her mother stopped by suddenly at Rob's house (where we were staying for the night) and I got to hang out with Nikki for a little while longer...I loved it. I love them.

And now I'm back to the beginning of where this long post started. It seems the beginning is an end. And I'm perfectly fine with that. I was going to watch Pathfinder tonight, but I might hold off on that. I'm tired...another day and another time, for sure.

Dear Chicago,
I love the people that you hold.

*~[Endlessly]~*

Last Day

Today is my last day in Chicago...and it's very saddening. I had to say goodbye to some cousins that I am VERY close to and I almost cried...I usually do, but I wasn't alone so I couldn't. But I probably will tomorrow when we leave for the airport...that's what usually happens.

I love everyone here so much and it sucks that I don't get to see them but once, maybe twice a year (three times if we're REALLY lucky). It always hurts to leave...it sucks. But we came down here for a damn good reason. Which I'll write about later. For now, I'm just updating my blog cause I'm kind of bored and little hungry.

But my next post is definitely going to be about what we did here in Chicago on a daily basis and how amazing it has been! Granted, I'm kind of excited to go home. I miss my dad, friends, and animals. But still...

As soon as I get home though, I need to start filling out applications and sending them into places and such. I need a job...

Buuuuuut...I'm going to make this really short. And hopefully find some food.

*~[Endlessly]~*

C.H.I.C.A.G.O.

Ah...Chicago...how I love that city... I don't love it for the city itself though, but for the people who live there ;D

I have visited Chicago for about...sixteen or seventeen consecutive years and let me tell you...each visit has been the highlight of my life! I have amazing family in those parts and I love them so much! The cousins that I grew up with over there...gah, I cherish them so deeply within my heart...everytime we leave to come back for Texas (or vise versa when they leave back for Chicago after visiting) I cry...I cry like a baby. This time, I will be crying while I'm STILL there, though. My cousin, one who I've known since pretty much birth, is graduating from highschool...I'm going to cry so bad >_< but she is so excited! So yay! And I cannot wait to see them all!

Me and my mother shall be hopping on a plane tomorrow at some point (I never find out the time till last second xD) and I CANNOT wait!!! Till then, I must pack...and pack and pack. And hang out with my best friend =) She says she's sad and happy that I get to go and we're just going to enjoy the day together till I get back.

On other news...I started Eclipse the other day (for the second time) and wow...I have forgotten so much in this book! Like....EVERYTHING! No kidding, each page I turn I'm like 'o.o WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?!' But...I'm still loving it! So much, that I think when I'm done with this blog entry, I'm going to pick it up again till my grandma arrives here so I can visit with her.

Till next time!

*~[Endlessly]~*
((Yes Soble...your heart speaks the loudest out of them all...))

Party Days

Memorial Day = Party Day
At least at my house.

We're inviting family and friends over for a day in the sun and pool and welcome them to induludge in my father's BBQ! So, today should be fun! I haven't seen my family all that much lately and today will be a good day to catch up with everyone. I just wish I could be able to swim...but I can't =/ Female reasons...bleh.

I won't let that get me down, though! I will enjoy today to the fullest! And I will help out as much as possible =)

I hope everyone has a wonderful Memorial Day!

Oh, and please check out my tumblr blog: www.rooftopsweepforthesunlight.tumblr.com I've done a review over the film Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time

Good Weekend Ending A Tad Unpleasantly

I was able to spend the weekend at my brother and sister-in-law's house and visit with them. It was great! This really gave us time to bond and talk and be lazy. We were able to watch five movies; Law Abiding Citizen, It's Complicated, Edge of Darkness, Inglorious Basterds, and Old Dogs. We tried to watch a sixth movie (which was originally the fifth, but we switched to a funnier movie for good reason) but it was too freaky for both me and Ashley. It's called The New Daughter which stars Kevin Costner, but we just couldn't watch it. It looked like a movie about a girl being possessed...and we stopped it about twenty minutes after we started it. Pitiful, I know, but it's better to not have nightmares =D

So, it was a good weekend! We napped on Saturday for about three hours (ACCIDENTALLY!), and I tagged along with them to their church while they set it up for Senior Sunday.

But...I definitely missed home, my parents, and animals. It was good to come home today ^_^ And this next week is going to be a little busy but definitely fun, so I think this lazy weekend kind of recharged my battery from the previous week.

Oh! I know I'm being random, but I might as well say what's on my mind for the moment. Last Wednesday, me and two of my friends went to the movie theater and purchased tickets to....THE MIDNIGHT SHOWING OF ECLIPSE!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAY!!!! I am so ready for this film to come out!!!! I cannot wait!!!! AND I let someone borrow my Eclipse book a year ago and I'll be getting it back tomorrow! Which I'm happy about cause I would love to re-read it before I see the film. Sometimes, when I do that it makes me hate the film a little, but I like to remember what REALLY happened.

And...back to the title of what this post means. It was a really good weekend at my brother's but...I got chigger bites all over my legs from when I was outside in their backyard. THEY ITCH LIKE CRAZY! But...thankfully Chiggerex is working wonders...if only it'd last more than a couple of hours! Oh well, I think I will live =P

Cleaning Doesn't Always Help

Granted...cleaning can do a lot of good for the room, the person, or the soul...or all things combined, which is what usually happens.

Well...today I was going to clean my room just because...it really needed it. It's a lot easier to see dust balls on our floors now that we switched to wood and tile from carpet. I can't stand those dustballs...and they always form in the same places! Once there is a dustball behind my door, I know it's time to clean...and it usually shows up within a week.

But this morning I found a new reason to clean. Last night I finally put in my retainers after realizing that my teeth are slowly moving back into their previous positions...I can't have that! My parents paid for my braces and I will keep them straight! So, right before bed I put in my retainers and went to sleep. Well...I woke up with morning with no retainer in my mouth. I found the bottom half on the floor next to the bed...but no top half. I can't even find it in the sheets and I have no idea where it could be! I really don't think my dogs took it...they're pretty smart about what not to chew/eat cause we taught them well. But...I just got done cleaning my room with no luck of finding the top half. Next step: take the sheets off my bed and see if they're hidden in there after all. I hope I find them.

This is what my days consist of usually XD

Oh well, as soon as I'm done looking, whether it be a failure or success, I'm going to read more of Sherlock Holmes.

Comfort Food

Today was the day of the interview...and guess what? I'm alive!

Confessions, confessions...: I hate Kohl's. I didn't want to do this interview. I only sent in an application as a last resort. I did NOT think they were going to call back.

Despite those confessions...it went really well! The man and woman who interviewed me were very nice, clear, and precise with their questions, words, and explanations. I left with a smile on my face. They said that they were interviewing many people today, but that they would set up a second interview and go from there. I'm only worried because this weekend I'll be kid-sitting and won't be able to go down there if they need to speak with me...I just need to keep praying!

Well...when I got home, I decided to eat and realized that after I'm nervous...I just want to eat and eat and eat. I guess food is my comfort food when my nerves are calm after having just freaked out. Oh well...it feels good xD

Anyways, I was hoping to spend some time with friend today but I'm not sure if that's going to happen. She's being very vague which means she's either tired or having a bad day...considering what happened last night, I'm betting on the bad day.

I think I'll sit down with my good Sherlock Holmes book and just enjoy the rest of the day!

Exciting News!

Recently, I've been pretty down. With school out and not having a job, it's pretty hard to not spend what little money I have and it's hard to occupy my vast amount of free time to do...something productive (I count reading as productive but not everyone sees it like that xD). When you don't have a job and the only people you spend your time with are working their own jobs or just disappearing off the face of the Earth for a while...things start to get pretty boring pretty fast. And then the house becomes stressful cause my dad is always asking "Are you looking for a job?" And my answer is "Of course. It's just that no one is hiring right now."

Well...this morning I was put into a good mood. I checked my grades for the first time to see how I did this semester in school and it turns out I got all A's!!! =D I'm so excited cause I honestly didn't think I did well enough for that! So yay!

Second good thing...I started to get excited about this fall semester. I checked out all the classes that I want to take and now all I have to do is talk to my counselor and get a spot in those classes before it's too late. The classes that I KNOW I will be taking are Anatomy and Physiology, Computer's Application, State and Local Gov., College Algebra, and Human Lifespan Class (I think). I might also take Art Appreciation or British Literature. It just depends with those two classes. We shall see!

The third good thing! While I was getting all excited about classes and writing down what my schedule will be like, I got a phone call. From a number around town. I didn't know the number, but I knew it was a land line and not a cell. Which only meant one thing... It's taken about two weeks but I got a call back from Kohl's and they set up an interview with me for tomorrow at 2:00 p.m.!!!! I am so ready for this! To have a job and make money and actually do something productive with my time! Sure, I can't really stand Kohl's to be honest, but it's a potential job and I will take it in a heartbeat! So yeah...I'm pretty excited! I wish the interview could happen today though cause I just want to get it over with...but tomorrow will be here in due time! Praise the Lord!

I really hope that I get this job...it would be amazing! But if it doesn't work out, I'll just go about bugging B&N and Half Price Books on a regular basis ;D

A High That Was Brought Low

Around the beginning of the week my friend had a pretty good idea. She wanted to fast for some hours since she's never done it and wanted to challenge herself and asked me to join in! I said sure and we set it up for midnight, beginning Thursday and would end it at noon on Friday...36 hours of fasting...my last and only fast before that was 30 hours for a youth group thing. This...was a challenge.

All of Thursday I was fine, but I kept looking at the clock thinking that I had forgotten my meals! It was kind of sad to remind myself I couldn't eat...but my friend was the same way. She came over to my house for most of the day and my mom cooked her own dinner and we were fine! We didn't give in =D

It was really bad this morning... I woke up hungry and really, really weak. I had errands to run today but I honestly didn't feel strong enough to get behind the wheel of my car and drive around town. Waiting for three more hours and only drinking water just was NOT cutting it! I'd drink it and feel like throwing up! It was awful!

Finally though, 12:00 came and I was able to stuff myself! I was making some gluten-free mac and cheese, but the noodles weren't quite done..so I headed to the fridge for some strawberries and grabbed the package of gluten-free oreo cookies from my closet and went to town! Lemme tell you...after 36 hours of nothing to eat, those strawberries and oreo cookies were the best combination I had ever had in my life! Ten minutes later, the noddles were done and I quickly mixed everything together and polished that off as well!

That food gave me a HUGE energy boost! I hardly felt weak anymore and wanted to go running around. I had so much energy that it was awesome! So, I got in my car to run my errands and thought about that sudden energy boost...and it reminded me of Left 4 Dead 2. In that game, when your health is really low and if you have an adrenaline shot in handy, you can use it on yourself to give you a good, but short, burst of energy. Yep..that is what that food was to me after 36 hours..an adrenline shot. Not only because of the boost, but also because of the fall. Boy...my heart started hammering like crazy when I was on my way home and I started to get really tired. Thankfully, I made to my casa in time and passed out on the couch for about an hour and a half. I'm still kind of out of it (naps always have a weird affect on me. Sometimes I'll feel sick when I wake up or be very disoriented...and sometimes it's those two combined). So, I'm battling off the food fall and trying to stay awake so I can eat...more. Yeah...I'm still hungry and want something good, but I'm not sure what.

Anyways, that is my story of my 36 hour famine! or...fasting! To be honest, I didn't think I was going to make it...but me and Laura held strong! We'll try this again sometime in the future, but we decided we'll not only drink water but also juice. Water was seriously not cutting it.

1 Year Behind Me And What....4 or 5 More Years To Go?

Yep...I guess I just passed a milestone in my life. My first year...my freshman year of college is officially done and over with as off...10:45 this morning. I took my Psychology final exam, walked back to my car, started down the 30 minute drive that would guide me home and...half way there I found myself saddened.

Overall, I have found out that I LOVE college! This year has been absolutely amazing! The teachers have been great, the other students are super nice, and the campus is fairly small which made me even more excited! I'm not to fond of universities...big places freak me out to no end.

I was sad as I drove home and I'm still a little on the blue side as I type this. Yes, I get to spend one more year in that amazing place, but the year after that..? I've no idea. I've hardly given it a thought because, to put it simply, I don't want to think about. However, hello there reality! It can't be ignored forever.

I have plans for the future and I'm pretty certain of those plans. All it's coming down to is the whole where-the-next-campus-will-be decision. And I'll figure it out. Hopefully, without developing an anxiety disorder during the process...I really need to work on that.

But I should be celebrating, shouldn't I?! Freshman year is gone and guess what? I passed both semesters with mostly A's and a few B's! And...that just got my mood way up xD Yay for realizations!

Anyways...this is a super long post. Time to make is a tad longer: my friend just invited me over for the night and I can't wait! I miss my best friend! We'll celebrate tonight with movies and talk of how we'll spend our summer =)

Oh...and I'm going to visit my brother's dog tomorrow! She is the cutest German Shepard puppy ever! Don't get me wrong, I love my brother more than the dog but it will be while he's working. I'm just going to look after her while he's busy xD

A Day To Mark Many Things

May 1st...my calendar says quite a lot about this day.

'The Long Walk' is the first entry. Stephen King's novel The Long Walk starts on this day. On May 1st of every year one hundred boys will start this walk till one is left standing...and literally left standing. The other contestants will be dead; either killed or they just died along the way. It's one of my favorite books because the main character reminds me of someone I'm very close to. So...in some alternate literary universe/reality...The Long Walk has already begun. Raymond Garraty Davis...be strong.

If anyone has ever read the manga Fruits Basket then perhaps they will remember that today marks the anniversary of Kyoko's death :( I'm sure in some other alternate reality Tohru is having a picnic on the grave with Yuki, Kyo, Hana, and Uhoh. I wouldn't mind reading that series over again ^_^

Today is Narue Nanasei's birthday...and maybe Sarah's too if I'm not mistaken. But anyways, Joseph really needs to pay his mother (Narue) a visit...he's a momma's boy at heart and keeps complaining that he hasn't seen her for so long :)

And Today is Michael's birthday, too!! Happy Birthday Michael!! But I feel bad for him...his girlfriend will not be seeing him today. She doesn't want to see him =/ Which usually means...not anything good.

Lastly...today is the 6th anniversary of something that is special...and not special. It's a hate/hate relationship but unavoidable =P Just gotta learn to deal with it.

Besides all those dates, today is going to be a Date Day with by best friend! We're going to see A Nightmare On Elm Street and go from there...see where the day takes us. We're going to have a great time :D

Fresh Start....hopefully

Feels good to start over on this blog...maybe I should transfer all my tumblr stuff on to here? Nah. It'll just be a continuation.

The weatherman said it would rain...and big surpise I haven't seen a single wet drop hit the pavement. Texas is finicky like that.

I've been preoccupied with books though :) One of the many blessings that life has given us!