It sucks when family members of the same family just aren't there for each other.
Everyone has seen those family films where the family is just so together and there for each and every member. So compassionate and willing and loving. Sure, in most of these films a problem will arise but it is almost always fixed in the end. It's situations like those that I wish how all families could be.
I'm not saying that I have an AWFUL family or anything. Really, quite the opposite. I've been blessed with a great family, but I am now realizing (for the first time) that there is so much unnecessary hostility from certain people. Hostility of such a degree that I have no idea where it even originated from or why. There is no reason for it. These people have done nothing to them except grow up beside them when they were in the states, shown up for every party, attended family activities and so on and so forth. When I look back, I see that the hostility has been there for quite a while.
One person in particular holds a grudge and it breaks my heart. I hear a lot of our family talking about one another and I just want to yell at them and tell them to stop because it is not their place. We should not be this way. We should be united as one as a family should be.
And then I heard another talk about one of our cousins in such a harsh, uncaring manner. I was shocked to hear her. She puts on some pretty good masks apparently. I think she could sense how uncomfortable I was because she looked at me, laughed and said "Really, it's funny." I wanted to tell her, "No, really it's not." But held my tongue. I would have been attacked by two vessels and what good would that do? It'd get me nowhere except further away from them.
I love each and every one of my family members so much. None less, none more. They all hold a special place in my heart. Maybe one day this can be fixed. Maybe not. Time will tell. And till then...I'll just pray about it.
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